For years I’ve been deluding myself into thinking that maybe, just maybe, the songs that I created would someday be heard by a top notch record executive who would shower me with praise and and offer me a suitcase full of money. It hasn’t happened yet.
I remember the day I started this site. I was a wide eyed optimist wanting to promote the music I created in the high hopes that I could still be relevant, maybe even make a living from it. Dreams are the one thing I was never short of.
Gene Simmons ( KISS) recently wrote: “The death of rock was not a natural death. Rock did not die of old age. It was murdered. It’s very sad for new bands. My heart goes out to them. They just don’t have a chance. If you play guitar, it’s almost impossible”.
He’s not the only one, Roger Daltrey ( The Who) said: “The sadness for me is that rock has reached a dead end… the only people saying things that matter are the rappers and most pop is meaningless and forgettable.”
Today I’m at a crossroads, my guitar doesn’t beckon me the way it used to. Maybe because deep down inside I know it’s true, rock is dead and the only people still eager to hear it are my 3 supportive relatives and the people from my own generation, now 50+. You can still find them when an older band comes to town, proudly wearing their faded and stretched concert T-shirts that they bought 40 years ago that they can’t bare to part with.
This was my generation, these were my people, we were raised on Zeppelin and The Stones. Sadly, the tourch was never passed down. The music heard today pissed that flame out long ago.
The feeling I have today is sheer boredom, I feel like my favorite toy has been ripped from my hands. I do believe that anyone who creates or plays music is an “artist” and to be an artist you need an audience to remind you that you are still relevant. Sadly, rock ‘n’roll is simply no longer relevant.
So “what does a poor boy do”? I know this all sounds depressing if you’re anywhere near my age but at the same time I’m anxiously awaiting what’s next. I know there’s something out there that will grab me like rock ‘n’ roll did, I just haven’t found it yet. I’ve scanned all the web sites using the keywords “Hobbies for men over 50”, nothing looks appealing. I dread falling into a trap that seems to ensnare many people my age…Work..Watch TV…Sleep…Repeat.
Am I destined to just fade into the Rock ‘n’ Roll sunset, jam out some “oldies but goodies” occasionally with some like minded musician friends and turn off the radio as fast as I can when I hear another Beyonce or Justin Beaber song ?
Nostalgically I think to myself , it was a good run, we were a force to be reckoned with…Then I remember the lyrics to a great Who song “The song is over, it’s all behind me”. That may be true but the question for me is not from “Who’s Next” but rather “What’s Next”.
Rock ‘n’ Roll may be dead but it’s spirit lives on, I just have to find it.. The King is Dead……..LONG LIVE THE KING!